We are but a breath......

I read something earlier tonight that really got me thinking. Gavin wrote " Gavin is back from his journey into the future. now is where i want to live." I read it several times wondering what he could have meant by that. While I was going over numerous interpretations of what he might have meant, it got me wondering if I live in the now. As I laid in bed pondering that thought, I couldn't sleep as my whole life started coming back to me. When we're children we constantly look forward to the next big thing, a toy, holiday or birthday. As we grow, we again look to the milestone birthdays, dream dates and future spouse. Once those things are achieved we look at starting a family, buying a home and living the American dream. While all of those things are wonderful, they oftentimes take our thoughts away from the minutes that make up the moments of our lives. Those moments are the memories to be treasured in our minds to one day be reflected upon. I have so many wonderful moments and have truly been blessed by God!

I'm at a odd point in my life where I look back and see how far God has brought me and yet it is very different than I had envisioned. My life is no where near what I thought it would be at this point. Yet, I have a husband who loves me and has truly become my best friend. I have always dreamt of the our children getting married, the grandchildren we'd have and the enormous amount of time spent with family. But, I now am wondering if I've put too much emphasis on the future and not enough in the now. I have so much to be thankful for NOW................husband, children, family, friends, freedom to serve the God I love openly, a job that is so fulfilling, a home, pets and the list could go on and on.

I want to live in the now and breathe in the cool crisp autumn air, walk in the wind, run in the rain letting all of my defences down and savoring the life God gave me. We are all here but a breath and I want to enjoy this breath all the while recognizing that my life is not my own and that I am placed in this place, at this time, for the exact purpose that God has planned.

Lord Jesus, I give you my life anew. Fill me with the awe of spending every moment in your presence in this place in which you've placed me. I choose to live for today. Thanks Gavin for giving me something to think about to help me refocus.

Bless you all!